Struggling with constant dread and social anxiety. Does it get better?
I’ve been feeling a constant sense of tension and fear lately, and I’m struggling to understand why. Around this time last year, I went through a severe depressive episode. While I’m doing "better" now and I have a stable job (so no career stress), I feel this overwhelming exhaustion and a strange sense of guilt, even though I haven't done anything wrong.
I’ve always been a bit of a loner, but my social awkwardness has spiked recently. It’s reached a point where I feel deeply uncomfortable around women and find myself actively avoiding any place where they might be present.
I feel like I have so much bottled up inside and nowhere to vent. I’m terrified about the future and keep wondering, will I ever feel "normal" again, or is this just who I am now?