Just looking for some support
It's been three years since this awful condition completely changed my wife and best friend (which coincides exactly with when she stopped taking BC).
I've dealt with it all: gaslighting, denial, rage, you name it.
I'm so thankful I found this community recently. It was like I could have written many of these posts myself. I am so incredibly isolated and lonely, but this sub helped me feel a little less so.
I did it again tonight: I asked for empathy / understanding which led to the predictable outcome of me apologizing for nothing, groveling confusedly, and being left sad and confused. I know not to engage during luteal, but its so hard to tell when its actually over, and my wifes bad time extends beyond sometimes or shows a bit during other parts of the cycle. She has never really fully admitted to how cruel her actions are during these times.
I'm starting to realize that I enter what seems to be a sort of daze / disassociation when I'm stressed around her. I can absolutely feel her disgust towards me when I do (which she of course denies). Its like the more affected I am the more she hates me. Anyone else experience this?
Thanks for giving us a place to vent. I am so grateful that this community exists. Hang in there everyone