How do you deal with anger?
For almost two years I’ve dealt with inflammation that’s spread through my foot, and in my left hand. Other joints are also compromised by compensation. Like I’m sore everywhere even if I didn’t work out. The baseline fluctuates but I’m never not in pain. Basically took the last of my teen years and followed me into adulthood. I’m supposed to deal with it until I see a rheumatologist in like 6 months. Though doctors suspect rheumatoid arthritis.
But I just feel so angry all the time. Even when I’m in a good mood the anger is there in the background. and my patience is gone for everyone, especially able bodied people— I know that’s not fair, it’s just a feeling. I don’t express these feelings outright or take them out on people, but I always wanna punch a wall.
My college friend even remarked that I’m different cause I “used to be the sweetest person ever” and now I’ll just randomly get sharp in ways they wouldn’t expect from me.
Just a rant, but if you’ve dealt with pain for a long period of time, have you found a way to manage the stress or anger that comes with it? or do you just channel it somewhere? any insight would help