u/TonightExpress2220

So I was great sleeper until 2.5 ago. I used to sleep whenever wherever how much ever I want. I used to sleep the moment my head hits the pillow. But about 2.5 months ago it all changed when I decided to fix my sleep schedule, worked great for week or two and then one day wasn’t able to sleep till 3:30 am and that started my insomnia. Fast forward now I can’t sleep at all, even if I do it feels so unnatural that I am forcing it or something or my body just randomly shuts down. Idk what to do at this point losing all the hope I cry when I look at my old photos life was amazing I was so full with energy. Now all I have is thoughts of ending it, and feeling that I will never be normal again. I don’t why I am writing it here maybe for hope idk at this point.

Hi guys so used to be a sound sleeper my whole 25 years of life you ask me to sleep at 9 I will, you ask me to sleep on floor nw, you ask me to sleep at 3am nw it’s like my body was taking what is needed could sleep stretches of night even with 10 people snoring around me.

What Changed

During Jan I started fixing my sleep schedule like 12-8 being active using less screen and all. Worked great for a week then suddenly wasn’t able to sleep one day and that started this whole cycle of me not being able to sleep.

Initial Days

I used to have such debilitating anxiety over this like I was just sitting their doing nothing all day crying, hoping to d*e cause it felt like something valuable has been taken away from me

2Months

After 2 month I am at much better place doing my daily activities day time thinking about this is lowered.

I did every test possible Mineral, blood work, MRI, CT scan nothing seems to be the issue. FYI I never had anxiety in my life and some very shitty things happens to me I lost all my hairs in 22s, my grandma, grandfather,sibling died. I changed countries and moved away from family and during this not a single night I remember when I had sleeping trouble.

Current issue

My sleeping ability still hasn’t return I don’t feel sleepy lot of time even when I don intense exercise and all. When I go to bed and close my eyes it’s 50/50 either I will sleep and wake up after 8-9 hrs or it’s gonna be long night and need to take sleep aid to sleep. When I mean I used to sleep nice I mean 10-12 hours sometimes withought a single wake up.

If anyone been through this situation please let me know and provide any help if possible. Thanks for reading such a long post

I don’t see a way out. Feeling so hopeless. Ig this is it

Suddenly lost my ability to sleep 25M