I feel like I am stuck. Advise wanted
Hello Everyone,
So as the title says I feel like I am stuck in my TRE journey. I practice for 15 months now, started off with a professional practicioner, but do it solo now.
The last time I tremored was about 2 months ago, I have no clue how you guys make it a weekly practice. Everytime I tremor, even for a few minutes I am sick for at least a week. My practicioner called it "Emotional Vomiting". I get this strong vomit urges even though nothing ever really comes out. It is such an intense experience.
So, last time was 2 months ago, and even today even as we speak I still feel this "pull" sensation on my stomach, I can barely eat without feeling sick, I am constantly tired and I kind of want to be in bed all day. And now I have it in my head that I did "half a session" last time, if that is even possible, and now I have activated a lot of energy without actually releasing it. But I am scared to do it. I am scared to go back to tremoring. I am scared that this cathartic experience is at hand, and I am scared to go trough it. And now I feel like I am stuck. Like I must have dealt with this fear, before I paradoxically can deal with this fear.
What do I do now? What am I supposed to do now? Should I wait even longer before tremoring again? Should I find a different way to practice? Help is very much wanted.