Rant
I fucking HATE driving. I got my drivers license half a year ago, big fucking hurray, but that helped NOTHING with my confidence or driving anxiety. From the start I was so overwhelmed when I had to drive, there are a million things to look out for, my driving instructor was an asshole who only made me scared and insecure to drive, I have a huge ass BMW to drive now (happy that I have it, thank you dad I love and appreciate you, yes yes privilege and all whatever), half the time my legs are shaking because of the stress and there is constantly someone yapping in my ears on what I could do better when the only thing there is to do is to DRIVE IN A FUCKING STRAIGHT LINE AT THE RIGHT SPEED. Whenever I get somewhat close to starting to enjoy it I fuck up big time somehow, go home, cry myself to sleep and want to chuck my keys out of the window.
I didn't want to have a driver's license to start off with but my parents pressured me into it and I spent a huge amount of money on it, so now I have an owerglorified card that I hate and never want to use again, but I have a car and EVERYONE keeps saying that oh you can't just not drive with that license, otherwise all that money was spent on nothing, it will get better.
SHUT UP. I DONT GIVE A FUCK IF IT WAS A WASTE OF MONEY. I DONT CARE IF IT GETS BETTER.
I hate driving, I can't stand it, it stresses me to no end,I can't focus on so many things at the same time, one tiny mistake will possibly cost someone their life, everybody is so unnecessarily aggressive and DUMB, and there is a perfectly fine public transport system, why the HELL on EARTH would I torture myself with this shit???
Anyways
I'm not sorry for the foul language, this had to come out somehow