Being a NEET actually scares me so much.
agoraphobic, autistic
pretty much incompetent graduated from a alt school where i basically learned nothing so all i know is basic algebra and whatever science fact nonsense ive cobbled together.
i have some cool projects but all abandoned due to lack of motivation or embarrassment. i cant even really imagine myself working. i just wish things were declining more then i could have an excuse. i feel like SUCH a drain and i can barely even bear it.
it’s like every single part of modern society is so backwards so antithetical to life that it just has to go. for people like me to thrive it just has to. it scares me so much to think one day ill probably be living on my parents couch or with roommates in some gov housing nonsense (best case) or homeless/dead and i just don’t know how to cope with it. is that how it ends up? dead or homeless?