Is this messed up?
I couldn’t think of any other title for this post that fits my question.
My mom has been shipping me and my friend for 3 years(she began when I was 13) despite me telling her that I don’t want to date or marry my friend(or anyone for that matter) but while that’s annoying what makes me ask this question and why it makes me uncomfortable is why she wants me and my friend to date and marry.
She only ships me and my friend because she wants grandchildren but more specifically coloured/mixed race grandchildren(I’m a black South African and my friend is white) because she went online and saw some coloured/mixed race kids and says that they look beautiful.
This makes me uncomfortable because I don’t ever want to have children(I told her this but she just decided to demand that I have children even if I don’t want to), I don’t want to ever marry or date anyone and because it feels terrible that she only wants grandchildren out of it.
Is this messed/fucked up?