A random comment at airport security!!
I’m a 28F, obese and I’ve been like this for most of my life. I have PCOD and thyroid issues and losing weight has always been an uphill battle.
I’ve tried so many diets, routines, workouts… so many “starting from Monday” phases. Somehow nothing has ever really worked out long-term. And I’m self-aware enough to admit that maybe I’m still not doing enough. But I am trying. I really am making honest attempts.
At the same time, my job is extremely stressful. Long hours, constant pressure, absolute madness of a schedule. Most days I’m just trying to get through work and my health takes a backseat. I hate that it does,m but that’s the reality right now.
2 days ago, I was at the airport going through security. The female security officer looked at me and casually asked, “How did you gain so much weight?” Just like that. Out of nowhere
I didn’t even know how to respond. I just stayed quiet. She said sorry a few seconds later and let me go but it didn’t undo what was already said.
The entire flight, I couldn’t stop thinking about it. It kept replaying in my head. All I could think was why is this so hard for me? Why after so many attempts, have I never been able to fix this? Why does my body feel like something I have no control over?
I was actually going home after a really exhausting financial closing month at work. I was so burnt out, just wanted to be with my family and feel a little comfort.
But when I reached home, I couldn’t even eat. My mom had made simple home cooked meal and I just couldn’t bring myself to touch it.
That one comment sat so heavy in my chest.
It’s crazy how people can say something in passing and move on with their day but for someone else it just sticks. It digs into every insecurity you already have.