Years of contemplating what this all is. Year of therapy, finally just took my first 2mg.
I rarely start threads anywhere, but I had to tell someone. For years I always thought 'every guy wants to be a girl', did all the usual things thinking it was just some 'thing' you played around with, until realised more and more, the envy of women was depressing me - why can't I do that, or be them or look like them.
So finally did something. Started therapy a year ago, come 'out' to my wife saying this is something actually serious and that I think about every day, had the GP appointments (told her about them) and got the prescription this week.
Just took my first tablet. Excited, nervous and scared (you know, just because of everyone else). But I NEED to see if this is how I can be happy, less angry, more content.
Even though I've been a quiet lurker, the posts here made me feel not alone. So thank you all my 'anonymous' transau siblings.
I guess I should find a local community to say hi to, one day.