FAILED DROPPER, FAILED IN LIFE 🫠
Long story short : I was a JEE/KEAM dropper(brilliant, online).
Can't actually say JEE dropper cuz from the start my primary focus was KEAM. And cuz of that i was too lazy throughout the year and was studying only when I felt motivated and shii. But i seriously studied for the last 3 months (at least 8 hrs a day min, best days i went up to 12hrs as well) but the strategy failed i guess.Maybe cuz of lack of revision and mocks i got absolutely cooked in KEAM exam. It was like all the efforts i put in was going away from me, i got fucking panicked in the exam hall and i barely attempted 50-60 questions. Expected mark : somewhere around 140-160 tbh😭
Same shitt happened with the CUSAT CAT as well. I had my exam this morning, and it also went bad.
I'm seeing first attempters doing a lot better than me and that makes me feel so bad😭
Btw im not blaming it on anyone, cuz the major reason for this failure is me, i wasted the first few months. Then even though i locked in, the strategy was a bit off i guess.
Now i have no fuckin idea what should i do with my life.
Can't afford private colleges, probably won't get any govt clgs too.
I don't know what option is left for me. Should've taken admission in my first attempt itself, just wasted a year for this shit.