Really struggling after being ghosted.
Sorry everyone, feel like I need to vent a bit.
Had an intense relationship for two months (I know.. Two months is nothing). She is an FA, after a high emotional peak she would always discard, ghost me and come back in a few days/week later. I know she has fear of abandonment (don't think she realizes) but she even said she was scared I would run away etc. When she would ghost/discard, I never chased, never got angry, never put pressure on her. She would always come back after a while.
Never had any arguments or disagreements. She said how rare it was, how easy it was to be with me. That I am the perfect man, scared to be really in love with me, cried when I needed to leave.Sunday she said she would wait for me and only needs to be with me and talked about our future together. Right before going to bed she finally said 'love you' for the first time.
I thought this was a big step and finally we could proceed into something real and meaningful. I echoed her statement that I only wanted her etc. The day after I said I thought a lot about the day before and that I love her too (actually forgot to respond this the night before).
Since then silence.. Not a word since her last 'love you'. I thought to give it time as usual but something in me says it is final this time. Also because due to the emotional intensity the barrier to return for her is so much higher than in the past. I won't chase but it feels like now it is really over.
I have been struggling to come to terms with this and has been a rough day. The worst is that I actually thought we were finally on the right track.