My fwb was lying the whole time and I was right in my paranoia
So essentially, I began to get intimate with this guy in February. He visited my house for the first time and I realized he was in contact with a guy who tried to assault me. I’ve told him if they want to be friends that’s fine but I’m out. He said he’d block him but fought me several times on it.
There was alot of me blocking him, him reaching out through a mutual friend to give a half assed apology, ect.
But second to last time I did it, I realized he’d had the guy who tried to assault me on Roblox and unadded me.
The last time I blocked him he blocked me so I couldn’t see who he had added and whatnot, stating it “always caused issues” gaslighting me and shit.
I asked him, once again for an explanation on his behavior and he sent this:
“Pretty much I just was tryna figure out what happened between you two. It's two conflicting stories and the screenshots I saw literally didn't help. At first I was just fine but the screenshots his friends showed me i dunno. I didn't mean to get irate when you asked me to block or whatever but it genuinely was so fucking annoying after awhile mainly cuz you acted like everything I did was fully intentional. Like sorry that he's one of my 10,000 followers on an app I don't use at all but you made it seem like I kept track and was evil for it when it just was soemthing i wasn't thinking about. It made me feel odd considering what I knew. I don't want you to think I don't believe you or your story it's just a weird situation for me after seeing how you talked about the interaction afterwards. My friends were telling me just now I can't know your reaction for sure but when I told them they did agree it was odd. Maybe it's how you coped? I shouldn't have judged it. Sometimes I do things just to see what you do. I wanted to know if you truly did search for more issue when we had a falling out or if it was just a coincidence. Like when you got mad you go off on my statuses (even when you had me blocked at the time) and I know now. So that's why I just have to go back to walkingon egg shells. With (guy who tried to assault me) I don't care for him, he only followed me cuz I wanted to see if you were gonna dig around for something to get mad at. You can say I'm evil. It's wrong I know but i just hated the whole situation. I don't understand it. But now I do, and it's why I havent been resisting or whatever you wanna call it. I just was skeptikal is all. You can block me over this and that's fine. It's over now but you're gonna blcok me and I won't try and come back to you this time. Iam sorry for it as itt caused more issues. I do love you but you're gonna hate me and that's fine. Just don't kill yourself/“
I called him out on this message several times. He kept apologizing but it was/felt disingenuous and I called him out on it too.
I really want to belive he will try to do better, I still have feelings for him and I hate myself for it, please, I need a non emotionally driven opinion. People are leaving me over my attachment to him and he’s starting to ruin my life by proxy. Is he really so hopeless?