I went to a strip club and feel terrible about it.
TL;DR My friend M/26 and I M/27 were on a boys trip in Florida - We went down there to work on his boat but always like to party a bit too. We both have girlfriends whom we love. While we were waiting in line at a regular bar the line was so long we decided to drive and find another. He mentioned we should just grab a drink at the strip club. I know he liked to party at strip clubs with his brothers and other friends but I was not interested in doing that while having a girl. I have never looked for sexual action except watching porn on my phone which my girlfriend doesn’t love but has come to accept. He said it’s fun when a girl will just come and sit on your lap and doesn’t mean anything. It’s just a couple drinks. It’s just entertaining. I told him multiple times I didn’t want to go but it was right next to the bar we were at and before you know it I just said whatever and walked in.
I didn’t feel comfortable at first. But before you know it I had 2 girls grinding on me and I was erect. They just walked over and sat on me. I told them I had a girlfriend and they started grinding on me. I refused to go to the VIP section and didn’t allow it. No private nothing. I never went and refused to pay them money for their services. Which I feel good about. But I did fall short. I did get them a drink after they asked a million times and my friend was in the VIP room. And did allow them to shake ass on me at the bar.
After he came back from the private room and the girls gave up trying on me I told him I wanted out. I feel like I brought disrespect to my beloved girlfriend by being there and having enjoyed it for a moment.
I feel terribly guilty that I physically enjoyed a sexual encounter with someone else and I had truly believed I would never cheat. And I still believe I wouldn’t. I told my girlfriend previously I never have and never will. I want to stand by being that persons I don’t want to tell her about it and it’s bothering me. Frankly if she did the same I wouldn’t mind and wouldn’t really want to know. Does this make me a bad boyfriend? Am I now categorized as a cheater?