u/Sufficient_Return466

i really am sorry, I probably am being annoying as hell. Doctors cleared everything, carbon monoxide clear. I just took a nap. No dreams for now. Did wake up with odd things that can’t be posted here could’ve done them could have not i have no idea because i was asleep. im extremely fearful right now and now really do feel something pretty dark. It’s extremely unsettling but confusing. I can’t stop sweating and i have it cold in here so no way im hot. I just want it to end. I’ve made an appointment with my therapist just to rule that out also. Besides this im completely aware of my surroundings, know reality from make believe, everything is normal besides all this

It sounds crazy but I’ve had some strange experiences the last few weeks and it’s seriously depleted my drive , energy, and mood and i feel so low

I’ve talked to my landlord, carbon monoxide is out of the question every thing is good there, am at doctors now, everything is seemingly fine according to them other than my existing injuries and high blood pressure, so im not sure , i have no energy, have not slept and i feel like what i can describe as like a hollow shell of a man , i just dont know maybe i really am going crazy

UPDATE TO MY SITUATION WITH POSSIBLE DARK SPIRIT

doors have slammed and been knocked on , i hear like plates being thrown but everything in place when i check etc

I hate to bother this sub again i really do, but lately since my last post it’s been weirder and weirder, i feel lost,empty etc i can not truly describe it. I’ve had horrible nightmares the last few nights when i could sleep. On top of normal weird things that happen in my house. But the real kicker is today and call me crazy all you want but I’m very religious, i went to church today and had a bad feeling, felt sick almost felt like i couldn’t understand the service at all or what was happening and that hasn’t happened before. I could just be getting sick but i wanted another opinion to look at all angles. I swear im not crazy (at least i don’t want to be) i feel a lot of fear in my house now and im almost never relaxed my house has history but not that much, could it be possible I i invited something in and turned a normal house into something darker?

Im in the reserves and I have to leave for drill tomorrow, I filled my tank and saved it however it still will not get me all the way there, I don’t even care about eating I just need to get up there. The money will help me with getting to and from drill. I have a son so that’s where all my money goes to and being a ranch hand especially injured as my main job does not pay a lot

Im in the reserves but im injured, cant really work and my boss only gave me like 3 days PTO now i have a son , and hes well taken care of but that’s where my money goes, and i need gas money to get to drill tommorow, i have about $26 bucks left and still have to get a haircut. I filled my tank but it wont make it all the way especially if im going to go get a haircut
EDIT: i will pay back once im paid from drill, ive already asked if someone could just take me up there but no one could

Context, broken back from rodeo, am walking but that’s about all I can do, can’t work can’t do anything too physical , all I’ve done is sleep so I couldn’t sleep so I got up and went to a place near my house in my small town with a bit of history to it. (I know dumb) but I was just sitting out there for a bit, felt off but nothing crazy. Then I drive over the bridge and that’s where out of nowhere I swear I hit an animal I roll down the window and in the dark looks like a coyote , I go to reach for my phone to get the flash light on it and I flash back there and it’s gone, now I’m sure I would have noticed it getting up and moving because there’s really only 2 ways it could’ve gone and I would have seen it run past me. It would’ve been too fast for it to be gone like that too. This isn’t the first time in this area weird things have happened to me. (I ranch and help out with a neighbors farm so I check pivots and stuff and other things at night ) kinda shaken up right now from it or idk the weird feeling I got after but I’m sure once I breathe I can probably answer questions a bit better