u/Sufficient_Garbage_1

A couple of weeks ago I came to the realisation that love as we know it doesn’t really exist in my brain. I do belive we love each other as a species and how we connect with each other, but I don’t belive in that “special someone”. I feel the love we are being portrayed in society is easily replaced by a dog and a whore.

Does anyone else feel the same?

Am I broken for not believing in duality in this aspect?

I’ve been increasing my dosage from 1g-3.5g shrooms the last couple of months and this week I did my 3.5g. I’m pretty sure i didn’t have a full ego death but I did have some moments i forgot who I was and what I was.

I feel ready now for the big final 5g and a heroic death. We have decided that me and my trip buddy will have a friend join us so we can experience this together. We will go to a cabin in the woods. Far from people.

Any other advise? Experience? For reference I’m female and 65kg If that matters.