I think I found the reason why I feel so behind with the rest of our peers.
TW: depression and suicide
While most of my friends have careers, houses, spouses, families, I never planned on having those things cause I never saw myself being alive for this long. I never knew what I wanted to do when I got “older” or thought really about my future. As I’m sure a lot of us have or do struggle with depression, maybe suicidal thoughts popped in at a young age, and that’s what stopped me from dreaming of a future. Now at 33, I feel so behind with everything and I’m just trying to catch up. I started school back in August cause I finally found a profession I want to get into. I’ll hopefully get my Bachelors degree in spring of 28. It’s a struggle going to school full time and working full time and I wish I would have gone when I was younger. But it is what it is. Then don’t even get me started with relationships and houses. I guess all this to say, it’s not too late.