NEW RN GRAD SOB STORY
Hi everyone. I don’t have many friends in my position so I chose to reach out to this community :)))
I recently graduated, took my nclex twice. First go I got 150 and failed second I got 85 and passed. This week was really my first time on the floor and the first day I loved it, felt good a little slow to get the hang of things but after the day went on I felt great. Second day I caught a whirlwind of B*****!!! I’m struggling with identifying if I’m incompetent or if it was just a bad day and I’ve been beating myself up about it.
Nursing school dragged me through the dirt, I always felt stupid and knew less than my peers and this that and the third. However when I passed my nclex I finally felt like I could be a darn good nurse but after the second day I feel soooooo sooo stupid. Like I struggled with an IV, missed some context clues because I was flustered . To make matters worse, everyone at my job knew it took me 2 tries to pass my nclex and according to a coworker, people are judgmental about that and it’s all just hitting me hard. Btw I’m in the ER.
Everyone says that it’s normal to feel this way and one day it’ll click but I spent 4 years studying this.. I thought working would’ve finally gave me the confidence I needed to trust my decisions and perform the best I can as a nurse. Maybe I have too high of expectations.
What do you guys think.