My Daughter Keeps Inhabiting My Body and Giving My Husband Messages Before She's Even Been Conceived
I'm hoping to reach people who may have experienced a mix of astral and quantum time travel. I'm new to reddit and just learning how it works. I posted something earlier today that has taken 3 times to post, on the fourth time it got removed but some comments still seem to be on there? So I'm hoping this message can go through and reach people who are looking for answers too.
For context:
I am a generational shaman and medium. I grew up in a home of psychics and come from a tradition where we often let ghosts "mount" us and use our bodies to speak through us. I personally strayed from my family's tradition because I think mounting has a consent issue, so I prefer to talk to ghosts and guides for other people like a switchboard operator because I like to have control of my body. When I first learned the tradition, I learned how to be "mounted" safely, so when I say what I'm about to say please know that is not the scariest part of it all for me. I'm just more politely annoyed and inconvenienced I'm being mounted and it scaring the sh*t out of my husband.
Since March 7th, I've been having what I think is the peak of a kundalini awakening that started in 2023. I have very, very intense kriyas that have sent me to the hospital twice back to back and unbelievably painful chest, back, and spinal pain that led me to believe I was dying. (I have a history of dying and coming back to life 12 times, I'm familiar with death and know when death is coming because of a particular signature that happens. This is common in adventure shamanism and just how my life has shook at thus far. I know this sounds matter of fact but I hope you can believe me and know it's a lot to set up for what I'm asking your help with!)
As usual, doctors call me a medical anomaly: there is nothing "wrong" with my MRIs, CT scans, EEGs, EKGs, etc. What surprises me most is that I have not done anything to induce the kundalini awakening and assumed this lifetime I would not have one because I've already done other initiations within my family's practices.
The reason I'm posting here is because during my kriyas, I am often mounted by several entities: my great grandmother, an alien who refers to himself as Arzareth, my daughter (who has not been born), my unborn son (I miscarried 7 years ago), and an alien who only speaks in what I can call a water language.
I usually have little to no memory of what is said or done during these sessions and unfortunately have been scaring my husband and my chosen family who have been taking care of me at this time. While they are used to speaking to ghosts and ghosts through me, being spoken to by aliens is uncharted territory for all of us. Arzareth has explained we're all starseed family and most specifically my future daughter is a starseed, along with her two siblings (these are all children who have not been born and allegedly are on their way to incarnating).
They have started speaking to us in musical tones and trying to teach us two languages (music and water).
They also have taught us three new symbols those who are familiar with reiki might understand. These symbols allow us to speak telepathically to each other and the results so far have been almost too insane to be true. I'm still not sure about the other symbols and what they can allow us to do.
My daughter has come in my body at various ages (non verbal so maybe younger than 1?, 3, and then she said "I'm 6 but you say I'm 3). She knows the musical language taught to her by the same aliens who are teaching us. She sings and makes up songs a lot of the time. She also knows she shouldn't be travelling, especially without permission, and thinks we don't know she can do it (in the future).
I've had visions of her also running around and getting lost and picked up by either ETs or Sasquatch (who are irritated she keeps coming to them, but ultimately they seem like grumpy neighbours who are kind of happy to have her).
I should also say that 6 years ago, I heard her call out to me and she named herself. So, she's been talked about for the past 6 years even though my husband and I have not yet conceived any children together and were only planning on beginning our fertility journey next year.
I feel like I'm living in a sci-fi adventure movie and I'm hoping I'm not the only one who has experienced this? Happy to answer any questions and connect with people, I just want to understand what else is going on.
TLDR: My unborn and non-conceived daughter is using me as a conduit to deliver messages but mostly to just hang out, have any other parents experienced something like this?