u/Stunning-Weakness-58

Long time Goddardite here.

Being aware and reminding/choosing who I am throughout the day is my favorite method, if you can call it that. SATs, affirmations, etc were fun to me 10 years ago, but now they seem pointless.

I can always feel what it’s like to be or have whatever I want… at first. The first few days I can feel myself to be who I want to be without struggle, anytime anywhere. It feels like knowing, certainty, calmness, and there’s an underlying sensation of a very elevated peace as a result (not forced). It feels extremely powerful and good, but I never lead with emotions, just knowing.

The problem is I *always* lose that feeling of knowing after the first week or two, and when I pivot/redirect I can no longer conjure that sensation of certainty. It’s not that I doubt, I just feel… nothing? I feel the same I did a moment ago.

For this reason I have found myself quitting and coming back, and quitting and coming back for years. Since the feeling of the wish fulfilled IS what determines reality (and not the 3D) I just conclude I’m no longer doing it correctly if there’s no feeling anymore, because after all, isn’t this feeling what we’re truly after?

Is this the naturalness people talk about? I’m always baffled when I read stories of people being able to keep up with this feeling for months until the entirety of their desire is reflected in the 3D, but perhaps I’m misinterpreting what they actually *feel*.

I can imagine I’m trying to feel something because deep down I don’t believe it is done. When it is done, you don’t need to do anything. The question is, why do I feel the way I feel when I first start? If I still know it as true, why doesn’t it feel powerful or satisfying anymore?

I feel like I’m on the verge of finally understanding something that’s gone over my head for years.

Note that the 3D is not an indicator for me, but only my state of consciousness since that is the only reality.