In between transition and pushing?
With my first, I was attempting to go unmedicated at a very not unmedicated-friendly hospital. I ended up starting to vomit, lost all control/focus, panicked, got epidural. They checked me right after I got the epidural and I was at an 8. I was probable in transition and didn’t have a whole lot of time left.
Preparing for my second attempt at an unmedicated birth (at a different hospital with a different provider who is way more pro no epidural), I feel so much more nervous/scared. I remember the pain and panic right at 8 cm and don’t think I could stay there for very long. After I complete transition, does it taper at all until and through pushing? I’m just afraid I’m going to absolutely freak out again and not be effective while trying to push. And I truly don’t think I can do it if the pain is that bad for an extended period of time. Especially considering I should theoretically WAIT to push until fetal ejection reflex. How am I supposed to voluntarily sit at that level of pain and panic while waiting for my body to push? And are the contractions the same pain/intensity while pushing? Or do they subside?