I lost my money
I was 600 up since I started playing during Easter. It’s been going so well (600 is a lot for me I’m in high school so I don’t work and my allowance is 100). After a trip with my gf I had 300 left in my bank account and I wanted to play a little. I ended up losing it all after chasing back my losses. I just couldn’t stop I couldn’t help it and I saw it coming it’s so fucking stupid. I know it’s not a lot compared to others but I feel like it’s becoming a huge problem for me. It sucks so hard the feeling in my stomach the regret the embarrassment. I could have bought something for my girlfriend for myself whoever. Instead I lost it in such a stupid fucking way. I can’t think positively after this. I have exams in 2 week I at home with no school and tbh I have no motivation for anything after that. I just had to share it somewhere bc I want to close my account anyway and I don’t want to tell anyone as I promised to never gamble and I feel ashamed of myself. I’ve never imagined that the regret of gambling is 100x worse than the happiness of winning.