Health anxiety ruining my life
Where do i start i am a 29yr old (F) starting last year i was having really bad anxiety to the point i wanted to kill myself. Last July I was in and out of the ER (8 visits to be exact) for migraines and thoughts of having a brain tumor. I had ct scans with contrast that ahowed a clear scan and found out that my body was adjusting to a orchiectomy i had 2 months prior. Started feeling great as soon as i started taking vitamin supplements. Months go by and im fine. But then February hits and i end up having a small ulcer in my stomach that was bleeding and causing stomach pain. I was convinced i had colon cancer but went on a bland diet and took meds that healed it over the last 3 months. Didnt help that i was reading about James Van der Beak and Chadwick Boseman and their colon cancer symptoms which caused me to spiral into thinking i had colon cancer and was going to die. But now within the last week I have been having a soreness on my right arm near the muscle with a tingling feeling down to my fingers. I ended up finding out actor Eric Dane had passed from ALS which sent me down a rabbit hole of ALS symptoms which now has convinced me that i have it despite being able to grab things and have no other symptoms aside from a sore muscle and tingling. I feel like i keep moving on to something else every couple months and im scared that this anxiety is going to take over my life. I dont know what to do. I convince myself i have an illness and then cry for months until it goes away. Im scared.
I dont want this anxiety to rule my life. Im scared its pushong others away.