Why is she haunting my thoughts
Just wanted to posted on here and ask why I can’t get a girl I’ve known for about 2 years off my head?
We both liked each other, but never admitted to it while we were in the same country/ lived together. She said she was asexual but told a friend that she’s interested in physically and emotionally pursuing me. We even had intimate moments but we were fully clothed.
Everytime she found out someone liked me, she would make them dinner/ have long convos with them. She even became angry with me the last few days before she left back home, but wouldn’t talk to me about anything… she just sighed and rolled her eyes. We held hands for the last time (the night before she left back home) and she became super quiet during the walk even tho she was super chatty just before.
Ever since she left back to her country I became incredibly obsessed. I’ve thought about her first thing in the morning, while doing random tasks, etc.
I finally texted her a few weeks after seeing her for 2 days since I was near her town. I told her that I’ve been emotionally drained from thinking about her every single day. I told her I needed to get it off my chest because it was genuinely ki11ing me, making me so incredibly depre$$ed. I told her I felt stagnant, and needed to burn the bridge.
She told me she didn’t feel the same romantic feelings but wanted to be friends.
When we lived in the same house of 50 residents, she tried kissing me twice and held my hand when on walks. She always initiated being touchy and romantic, but what happened?
Why can’t I just let go after about a year now?
Why doesn’t she want to text me back? Does she have feelings for me still but is scared of expressing?
Why am I still thinking of her without trying to and feel very intensely about it?