u/Some_Count5645

Pata hai aaj kya hua ...

So I had been talking to a guy for more than a year,

I used to wake up till 5am to chat with him, he used to tell me his life problems and stuff, it felt very natural, we used to talk about ghosts, different places to visit

Till then he was my BESTEST friend and I didn't realise the fact that how emotionally attached I was with him!!!

So a month ago, one of his friend told me that my best friend likes me and I told him that I'd let him confess his feelings to me.

I knew for a fact that he liked me and I started realising how I'm able reciprocate the same for him....

On 30th April, i finally mustered up courage to confess about my feelings but little did I know that I was too late ....

Initially he said that "mazak krrhe ho na"

I replied "why would I joke"

And then he goes like " mazak krne ki bohat adat hai tumhari"

And like after a day we normally started talking, then he asked me "do you really like me"

I said "yes"

He said "I used to like you but now I'm in a relationship"

"Tere confess krne se ek din phele mai relationship mai aya tha"

And I was so dumbfounded, his sole responsibility was just to let me know that he was already committed which he didn't when I initially confessed to him and he dared to talk normally even after he had a gf

I asked his friend whether he knew about his relationship status, he said "yes I knew the day he came into a relationship"

Honestly, I feel like it wasn't really his mistake... He was confused after all

But we stopped talking and I couldn't sleep at night since that day and it did deeply hurt me because maybe my timing was wrong, i badly wanted him but he wasn't really meant for me. Passing through these initial days of a heartbreak is truly terrible and traumatising, every second i stare at the ceiling of my room in the dark, i started feeling that regret and that emptiness...

I'm not able to sleep, not able to study, not able to eat

My parents were thinking that I was just sick and they told me to relax but little did they know, how badly i cried for this guy... I can feel a strange ache in my heart when I'm alone in my room

Was i a second option for him???