I booked a ticket to Thailand... and I'm terrified.
Hi, my name is Dirk and I’m 41 years old.
A couple of months ago I decided to buy a ticket to Thailand for 28 days. I had a good week and I thought to myself, ‘if I have to sit at home all day feeling shit, by myself, wasting away, I might as well do it somewhere I’ve been dreaming to go back to.’ And it’s only for a month. Not a big deal right? Nah, I’m actually terrified.
Every time things get worse I get so scared thinking about Thailand. I just don't know how I could. Am I making a mistake? I just have a very hard time sitting at home without anything to look forward to. So I feel like I should do this, but at the same time I don't want to risk pushing myself into severe ME.
I don't exactly know why I post this, if it's advice I'm looking for or maybe encouragement. So any feedback would be nice.
(the photo is of me in Thailand 10 years ago when I was still mild).