Why keep faith? Abandon by God
If ones life is hell and God is a no show how does one keep faith or why keep faith. Ive never heard, felt, or been aided by God no matter my level of faith. My faith even cost me many friends, family, and social ties. At this time I regret it as all I have to show for it are ashes and a mute uncaring God. Im not Job and will not be getting back what was taken and im no saint hearing the very words of angels for guidance. I would like to note even at this late date If I was given back what was taken Id still want my original. For example I dont want a new family I want the one He let all die. All minus one left.
What's the point. A whole life of faith has turned only in to anger towards Him. I see no love, mercy, or care only silence. ALWAYS an excuse for His inaction or how there's no true Scotsman holy enough to get a response. I do not see a good shepherd looking for me or standing in the fire with me. If all interactions are untangle and undetectable its no difference than nothing at all is it not? If my earthly father treated me the way my Heavenly father seems to be you'd call him a terrible person. Ive spoken to pastors, priests, nuns, monks, etc and I get no answers that explain God being absent and uncaring. Always an excuse for his absence "everything is a test" or some other nonsense.
Loves you so much to die for you but not give you a single word? How or why keep my faith? I see nothing and feel nothing.