Anxious after MFM appointment
Left my first MFM appointment a few days ago and honestly I’ve been spiraling since. I’m around 6 weeks, this my first pregnancy, and I’ve had t1d for 24 years. I thought I was doing okay but after that appointment I feel terrified all the time now.
My A1C before pregnancy was 5.4 and last week it was 6.0 so I thought that was decent, but now every high or low makes me panic. MFM started talking about so many complications all at once like heart issues, stillbirth, shoulder dystocia, bigger babies even with “well controlled” diabetes, nerve damage, and so much other stuff and my brain genuinely has not stopped spiraling since.
She also mentioned my last EKG in the hospital didn’t fully look normal and was talking about how because I had for so long diabetes even if it was well controlled can affect the heart too, and she worried because pregnancy demands a lot especially because blood volume will increase she want to make sure my heart is strong enough to handle that and that scared me
The last night I went low, rebounded overnight to like 300, and I forgot to take my prenatal too and ever since then I’ve been sitting here feeling like wow I’m already failing as a mother somehow. I know I’m still really early and anything can happen, but now every time my sugar moves I get anxious and scared I’m harming the baby somehow. I’ve honestly just been wanting to cry since that appointment.