u/ShadowThumper97

My baby is 2 months old. Yesterday I realized that my milk was taking over the freezer portion of the refrigerator. I needed to bag the milk from the fridge to freeze and there was no more room. I moved 300oz from my fridge freezer to my chest freezer. I freeze an average of 24oz per day. I nurse my LO and pump and save all the extra milk.

Here it is, 4am, I just fed her and put her back down, and am now pumping. This is the worst one honestly. The one at 3-4am when the rest of the house gets to sleep like nothing else is important. Here i am attached to a machine stuck to this spot, for 20-30 minutes so I can pump, save the milk, clean, and put everything back before I get ti go back to sleep.

During the day, I use my wearable pump a lot and it makes things much easier. At the end of the day, middle of the night, and first thing in the morning, I use the Spectra.

I e started to think, maybe I stop doing the middle of the night pump? But then I feel guilty, like im not doing absolutely everything i can to make sure that my milk supply never dies or that Im not doing everything I can to make sure my girl gets the best nutrition for as long as she can. My mind is a crazy place sometimes. So I had the thought of slowing down my supply by cutting out a pump session in the middle of the night. I think I had the opposite effect, I think I pumped even more often, because I bagged my milk after just over 24 hours, and I put 36oz in the freezer.

To an extent I am beyond grateful for the oversupply. I have been on the other end and made it just about 3 months of breastfeeding before the stress and everything else got to me and that was it. So I think part of me is scared that if I dont keep doing EVERYTHING possible to keep my supply up, then it will just disappear.

Thank you for letting me vent. I still feel crazy...