Why is he ghosting me and is there hope for reconnection?
Okay so I met this guy online (in a game) back in 2017, the first time I heard his voice I fell in love, I know it's funny, but it's true and I still can't explain why or how... We started messaging each other (I initiated) and to my surprise he felt something for me too... After some time the topics got deep and emotional and we decided to meet up in real life...
So a couple of months passed and we saw each other irl... We were together for 11 days (in 2018, summer), those days felt like heaven, like we found what we were looking for... After that trip we continued texting and talking, we both felt extremely sad, this may sound cringe but it felt like one heart was ripped in half(we both felt the same).
Then suddenly he just started responding less and less, it came to a point where days would pass without an answer. When he did answer, he was rude, telling me to move on with my life, to grow up etc. I fell into deep depression, tried to forget him in the worst ways possible (excessive drinking, one night stands, getting into relationships just so I'm not alone with my thoughts etc.)
Years passed with me begging him for an explanation and he wouldn't give any. I tried finding someone even a little similar to him, but it wasn't possible, it's still impossible...
So, not long ago he did finally answer, telling me he had to let me go because it was painful knowing he's so far away from me and we can't see each other more due to financial reasons (we live in different parts of Europe). He also said that he still can't forget me and still has feelings...
I made a mistake when he reached out after that message, offering to come here, I refused... I was afraid.
Now I'm reaching out to him, asking to come see him even for one last time, so I can get some closure at least. I finally feel mature enough to take it, but he's refusing, coming up with excuse after excuse.
He's back to ghosting me now and it's driving me insane... After 8 years I still feel the same for him and I'm unable to let go..
I am a Taurus (23.04.), he is a Pisces (22.02.), when we met we were both in our early 20s, now both almost 30...
Is there any hope for us?