u/Securityengie

Hey everyone,

Okay, so I know this might sound insane to some, but I'm struggling with really losing the last few KG's of fat on my belly to reach my desired goal of 10-12% body fat, while also suffering from body dysmorphia.

Exactly 1 year ago, I weighed 107KGs/235 pounds and that is the fattest I've ever been, at a length of 187 CMs/6'1 foot. To put to that in perspective, 10 years before that, I weighed 82KGs/180 pounds at 20 years of age. I had some stuff happen to me (divorce etc.) and I decided I was done with being fat.

In about a year's time (almost turning 31 now), I went from 107KGs/235 pounds to 87.5KGs/192 pounds. It started with a very very agressive calorie cut of 1450 calories per day and walking for at least 10K steps per day as well and going to the gym to do cardio and light weight-lifting 3 times a week. While probably not very healthy, I mamaged to stick to it for the first 4 months and it helped me lose the first 10-12KGs of fat.

Then I had to move places (cause of the divorce) and dealt with some emotional things which caused me to lose grip and I started eating again, taking me back to around 94KG's. About 3 months ago I retook control and started on a 1700 calorie budget and started going to the gym like a madman for 4, sometimes 5 times a week.

My muscle mass and strength have exploded exponentionally. I'm currently regularly deadlifting 120KGs/264 pounds, pulling 200KGs/440 pounds on the plate-loaded lat pulldown, and benching 70KGs/154 pounds, while doing other exercises as well of course. but these are my most notable.

While these numbers mean little outside of my brain going "Hurr durr, me big man, me stronk", I'm somehow just not happy. I weigh 87.5KGs/192 pounds, and look more muscular than I've ever done in my entire life, but when I look in the mirror I'm just not seeing it. I still see and feel belly fat and fat on my waist in general. I can feel a hard layer of abdominal muscles underneath, but there's just another layer of fat that covers them.

I'm struggling to lose the belly fat and fat around my waist, while also struggling to not see a fat man when I look in the mirror. I'm still on a 1700 calorie budget on days where I don't train, I still put out about 8K steps a day on average besides going to the gym to keep my NEAT high, while eating more on days where I'm done exceptional amounts of exercise so I don't starve my body. Usually on those days I eat somewhere between 1900-2100 calories, 2200 is an exceptiom but happens sometimes.

Right now I'm starting to get in the mindset where I feel like I should start eating even less, while knowing that'a probably not what's going to help me here, since averaging over the entire week, I'm on a daily \~450 calorie deficit. But if that deficit just isn't enough for me to lose the belly fat, what the bleep am I supposed to do then?

Does anyone have any tips on this "final" stage to looking good-ness or tips on how to deal with the body dysmorphia? It would be greatly appreciated!

Thanks!

Hey everyone,

Okay, so I know this might sound insane to some, but I'm struggling with really losing the last few KG's of fat on my belly to reach my desired goal of 10-12% body fat, while also suffering from body dysmorphia.

Exactly 1 year ago, I weighed 107KGs/235 pounds and that is the fattest I've ever been, at a length of 187 CMs/6'1 foot. To put to that in perspective, 10 years before that, I weighed 82KGs/180 pounds at 20 years of age. I had some stuff happen to me (divorce etc.) and I decided I was done with being fat.

In about a year's time (almost turning 31 now), I went from 107KGs/235 pounds to 87.5KGs/192 pounds. It started with a very very agressive calorie cut of 1450 calories per day and walking for at least 10K steps per day as well and going to the gym to do cardio and light weight-lifting 3 times a week. While probably not very healthy, I mamaged to stick to it for the first 4 months and it helped me lose the first 10-12KGs of fat.

Then I had to move places (cause of the divorce) and dealt with some emotional things which caused me to lose grip and I started eating again, taking me back to around 94KG's. About 3 months ago I retook control and started on a 1700 calorie budget and started going to the gym like a madman for 4, sometimes 5 times a week.

My muscle mass and strength have exploded exponentionally. I'm currently regularly deadlifting 120KGs/264 pounds, pulling 200KGs/440 pounds on the plate-loaded lat pulldown, and benching 70KGs/154 pounds, while doing other exercises as well of course. but these are my most notable.

While these numbers mean little outside of my brain going "Hurr durr, me big man, me stronk", I'm somehow just not happy. I weigh 87.5KGs/192 pounds, and look more muscular than I've ever done in my entire life, but when I look in the mirror I'm just not seeing it. I still see and feel belly fat and fat on my waist in general. I can feel a hard layer of abdominal muscles underneath, but there's just another layer of fat that covers them.

I'm struggling to lose the belly fat and fat around my waist, while also struggling to not see a fat man when I look in the mirror. I'm still on a 1700 calorie budget on days where I don't train, I still put out about 8K steps a day on average besides going to the gym to keep my NEAT high, while eating more on days where I'm done exceptional amounts of exercise so I don't starve my body. Usually on those days I eat somewhere between 1900-2100 calories, 2200 is an exceptiom but happens sometimes.

Right now I'm starting to get in the mindset where I feel like I should start eating even less, while knowing that'a probably not what's going to help me here, since averaging over the entire week, I'm on a daily ~450 calorie deficit. But if that deficit just isn't enough for me to lose the belly fat, what the bleep am I supposed to do then?

Does anyone have any tips on this "final" stage to looking good-ness or tips on how to deal with the body dysmorphia? It would be greatly appreciated!

Thanks!