Anxious about moving excited by a new opportunity
Hello! I’m (27F) and my mom is (63) and I’m moving to Japan this August to teach English! My mom is divorced and she lives alone, all of her siblings are local but some are closer than others and she does have friends too that are local. This has been a really big dream of mine and it’s finally coming true. My mom is extremely supportive of it and I’m happy to go forward with it but I’m also someone that struggles with anxiety, though mostly manageable my mom had a really small but sudden health scare earlier this week (she’s fine now and everyone is ok!) but it got me realizing without me what is it going to be like. Shes getting older and yes she has other ppl here and she’s traveling more herself and enjoying her independence but I can’t shake the guilt of not only leaving her but not being there when she gets older and eventually might need my help. I’m very close with her and I have lived on my own for the past 4 years but I’ve always been no more than 30 minutes away from here. This is the farthest I’m going to live, but again moving to Japan has been a dream and I plan to stay long term, of course things can change as well too. I know if I stay thought I’m not going to be happy either so it’s a struggle. I don’t plan on dropping this opportunity but it is something that will worry me. We plan to talk often as we always do! I wanted some advice on how to go about this - I’ve seen ppl say things like it’s your life she’s and adult, she’s healthy and she’s going to be ok please don’t put it on hold and regret anything. It’s just my anxiety telling me that the worst is going to happen while I’m gone and I really wanna tell myself it’s going to be ok! Some encouragement or stories would be appreciated.