Failed CELE… 4 days later and I still feel lost
It’s been 4 days since the CELE results came out, and I still feel completely lost because I didn’t pass. I don’t know where to start again parang lahat ng plans ko after the exam biglang nawala, like everything I was holding onto just slipped away. Instead of moving forward, I have to go back to reviewing, back to the beginning, and ang hirap tanggapin. I tried studying today, but all I felt was burnout. I couldn’t even focus I just ended up crying because the thought of starting over again feels so heavy, like I’m carrying something I don’t have the strength for anymore. I even deleted all my social media because naiinggit lang ako sa mga kaibigan ko who are already celebrating and moving forward, while I’m here feeling stuck, left behind, and ashamed. Nakakahiya… especially when people start asking or when I see how far others have gone. I gave everything I had, I really did, but it still wasn’t enough this time, and that’s what hurts the most. Right now, I feel empty, exhausted, and confused like I don’t even know what I’m supposed to feel or how to pick myself up again. All I know is that I’m tired… really, really tired. 😔