Feeling behind in life…
Hey All
Venting, maybe looking for some advice, who knows…
I’m 33. Married for 12 years with 2 kids. 12 and almost 6. Obviously can tell I married and had my first young (and unexpectedly in college). I’ve worked so hard to get to where I am and meet my goals…
I worked full time through school and graduated with my bachelors degree in 2019 (finally). I am a Senior Account Exec in Advertising/marketing. So safe to say, I did what I set out to do.
I am the default parent with my kids - my husband is great but he has a job outside the home and works 7am-7pm shifts and I WFH so naturally of course I am there more for the kids. School drop offs, pick ups, appointments, sports, etc. of course he does anything and everything he can when he’s available.
After quite a few years of suffering terrible anxiety and overworking myself to burn out, I finally took charge last year and go on anti anxiety meds and therapy. I am completely different from who I was 16 months ago and I am by all means “thriving” now. My kids are always my priority, as well as my me time which is working out, so while I’m okay with maybe not being in my “girl boss” era I can’t help but feel sad watching those around me move up on and on. People younger than me getting promotions into higher roles, etc. I know they don’t have kids and my brain just can’t be on work 24/7. Im actively working on my next promotion and my boss is all for it and helping me make it happen, but I guess I just feel behind and like I should be able to do more, push myself more, etc. it just makes me feel like a loser. Like I should already be farther than this in my career.
Idk what I need - works of encouragement or relatability would be great. Thanks for listening if you made it this far.