Haunted by life before the bad news
I’m 5 days post TFMR for T21, so I know this is all still fresh. The hardest part for me is thinking back to the few good appointments I had before the NIPT results. At our 10 week ultrasound, our baby was swimming around and throwing his arms out. We could see his heart beating away, and the midwife was so excited and taking pictures. She and other staff were congratulating us. I had appointments scheduled for nearly six months out and was given a packet with a lot of information to prepare. Now I break down every time I think back to those days. I posted about this elsewhere and I think some people took it as if I wished I didn’t have all the ultrasound pictures, but i meant it just hurts to look back on the happiness when we didn’t know what was to come. Has anyone else felt this way? I know things won’t always be this heavy, but right now Idk how I’m going to get through the rest of this year. 😭