Feeling like I'm losing
I got Mono about 9 months ago, was the worst infection I've ever had in my life. My throat closed to the point where i had to go to the Emergency room.
9 Months later Every month im getting progressively more exhausted, to where its affecting every thing in my life
I dont feel like going out to eat, as soon as im on a date my energy dies right away, driving is exhausting, chores are exhausting, talking is exhausting it feels like my arms and legs have this aching fatigue
I went to the doctors over 5 times and they said im crazy but did tests because i kept suggesting it
They said i was depressed and went through two medications in this period but they just made me bipolar but never addressed the main issue mental and physical crippling fatigue
Turns out i have mono active and EBV active in my body 9 months later, turns out my immune system might suck im getting an immune panel because they insist finally something isn't right
I can barely continue to sit on my desk and type without a feeling of exhaustion.
When they finally found out i was not crazy they loaded me with tons of vitamins and now i'm able to push through a mediocre task while still feeling exhausted. But it just takes me longer to go to sleep with all of them Im taking
B Complex, Magnesium malate, Vitamin D, Vitamin C, Selenium, Coenzyme Q10, Acetyl L Carnitine, zinc.
I'm super compulsive and am trying to live up to myself but it's getting harder to listen to my family, i haven't talked to my friends in months, i just don't feel like doing anything, i feel like im ruining my girlfriends life because anywhere she tries to take me i dont want to go or if she makes me im exhausted mentally and physically. my favorite food doesn't even get me up anymore.
I dont think she understands the full extent and told me maybe i feel this way due to placebo because i know im infected, she apologized because it upset me but although im sure shes has empathy for me she won't understand.
My doctors aren't helping, and nobody in my life understands, i feel isolated how do you guys continue?
I'm asking both physically and mentally