I bombed an interview and spent months feeling like a failure. Then I watched the company slowly collapse from the outside.
About two years ago I was job hunting after getting laid off from a small agency. I had a few promising leads but the one I really wanted was a senior content strategist role at a tech startup that had just closed a solid Series B. Nice office, good benefits, the kind of place that gets written up in local business journals. I made it to the final round, felt pretty good about it, and then got the standard "we decided to move forward with another candidate" email three days later.
I took it harder than I probably should have. I had already mentally accepted the offer in my head, started picturing myself there, looked up commute times. When it fell through I genuinely questioned whether I was actually good at my job. Spent a few weeks in a weird funk about it.
Then about four months later I noticed the company had quietly done a round of layoffs. Not announced loudly, just a bunch of LinkedIn posts from people saying they were "open to opportunities." Then their head of product left. Then their CMO. The Series C they had been hinting at publicly never materialized. By the time a full year had passed the office was subleased and the website had that particular kind of emptiness where you can tell nobody is updating it anymore. Eighteen months after my rejection email the company officially dissolved.
I looked up the person they hired instead of me. She had moved on to a new role eight months in, which means she was job hunting again almost immediately. The "opportunity" I lost was basically a front row seat to a slow motion shutdown.
I'm not happy the company failed, people lost jobs and that genuinely sucks. But I spent so long feeling like I wasnt good enough for that place. Turns out that place wasnt good enough to survive.