my dad has alzheimers im really sad about it
hey guys idk really what im looking for by posting this but throughout the day it hits me that my dad has alzheimers and i just feel like i cant breathe..in complete denial and its been 2 and a half years since his diagnosis and im confsued on where the person i knew and had a close relationship with for 21 years of my life disappeared to...im only 23 and i just thought i would graduate and get my daddy a car and he would be with me but he is changing and this shit hurts soooooo bad. I just feel like im living in an alternate realm and all the color has faded...life doesn't feel like it use to at all. My dad is the best person ever i cant explain how he clicks with everyone and had love for everyone even those that mistreated him....had a smile on his face at all times of the year, that was something i always admired about him even now as he struggles he still smiles....anyways idk im just so out of it since summer 2023 and now my life is passing its already 2026 and each year i get more and more sad. I use to be optomistic and a happy person but idk if i can jump back from this one my dad is my everything i never knew i would ever get to such a low spot in life its crazy.