This is hard.
Just wanting to post somewhere where I know I will be understood. I returned back to work last week after 12 weeks of maternity leave with my second baby. I’m a teacher at a public middle school, and my god is this transition so much harder than going back after the first baby. Most evenings we don’t get home until 5:30. Then I have to cook dinner, we eat, give both boys a bath, try to spend some quality time with them before bed. My husband puts our 3 year old to bed while I feed the baby and put him down. Then we do whatever cleaning we have the energy left for, shower, prepare for the next day. I feel like I don’t have enough time during the week to really do anything 100%. More than anything I feel guilty that my baby went from only being with me all day everyday to maybe getting 3 hours with me a day. My husband is more than willing to get a second job so I can stay home with them but I know we could give them both a much better life if I work. All this to say it’s just hard and most days I feel like I’m failing in multiple areas🙃