Missing her
been separated for a year...has not been great. I cant help but miss her. 6 years gone. we were supposed to start actually trying for kids this last winter. we both made mistakes and ive definitely learned wat I actually had. I didnt show appreciation, vulnerability, patience and effort. im angry, sad, ashamed and all round embarrassed. when I started to get over my own things and bought her gifts, the next week she moved out before the surprise came. started therapy when we finally had the financial standing to support help, I was days too late. when I finally asked myself certain questions, I was months too far gone. when I realized I could have opened up to her completely...I was the furthest from her mind and heart I have ever been and everyday I drift further. I was a drowning man, sinking watever help came. now I lay here in the middle of the night, dancing with her in her wedding dress in my head. ive tried dating, and getting myself out there but...Who could compare...who could even match the level of woman she was...the moon...is beautiful tonight.
The moon is beautiful, isn't it?