u/Rude-Yesterday-8955

My girl packed her bags yesterday after three years together, mainly because I’ve been an absolute paranoid nightmare to live with since I hopped on this cycle. I know I should be completely destroyed right now. Instead, I literally just watched her drive away and then went to the gym to hit shoulders. It’s like this stuff completely hollowed out my empathy. I don't feel sad, I don't feel guilty, I just feel completely blank to the fact that I just torpedoed my own life. Is this level of emotional detachment normal, or did I actually just break my brain?