I’m going to call this my Mother’s Day gift from my son.
Nobody has heard from him for a while so I have no idea how he is doing but the alienator wasn’t entirely successful at blocking me from all school communication. Sometimes they randomly send me stuff, ask me to sign off on things or update insurance info, things like that. So, I was going through my emails and saw an email from his high school with a list of materials that needs to be returned before the end of the school year and there is a title of a book that I enjoyed in high school that his dad never would have chosen in a million years.
I’m still smiling about it.
I guess it’s been a fear of mine that my son, despite looking like my literal clone, will turn out to be like his dad. Hearing him parrot his dad’s delusional rants verbatim absolutely stabbed me in the heart & it left a scar where his dad turned on me that I’ll never forget. But here is this little reminder that a piece of me is alive still in my son, despite the alienation, despite his dad trying to squish me out of existence. There is my emotionally sensitive, artistic son, exploring the same topics I did at his age and idk it just made me happy to know he’s still somehow walking his own path, even if it’s in his father’s shadow for now. It gives me hope that he isn’t entirely brainwashed, he’s just scared & trying to find his way and I am gonna be here when he does!!
That’s a pretty awesome Mother’s Day gift, intended or not. :)