u/Repulsive_File_9364

I have a flight in 3 weeks. After years of flying, I recently developed fear to it (bad experiences and realization).

For the past week it has been hell. I have spoken to many, trying to find a solution, even a friend who is a flight attendant. Nothing works. I do not like the idea of being up there.

Today I realised I cannot do it. My girlfriend wants to take a flight to take it back with me, and I felt pushed and almost started crying. I never dealt with anxiety and this is the worst feeling I have ever felt. Every 5 minutes it comes back. I cannot concentrate. I need to know that I am not taking that plane. I am even losing more hair than normal.

Luckily I can take some trains back home, although for more than 20 hours. And then I might seek therapy, cause an evern worse feeling is imagining all my life like this.

Got a flight in 3 weeks and I cannot stop thinking of how scared I am going to be when I am 37k ft. up there.

Flew many times. Suddenly developped a fear after a harsh flight, and I just can't imagine myself up there, sitting down normally. It has been draining me the past week.

Any ideas on how to take it easier? I am not scared of crashing, just the height and maybe the takeoff.

Thanks!