Which books of the bible are best to help deal with depression, pride, and struggle with faith
Recently I’ve been going through some of the worst experiences of my life the past months have been filled with depression and loneliness and a lack of faith. I recently got into orthodoxy which obviously is great but the changes your supposed to have never hit me I was still the same unfaithful, depressed, and egotistical person I was before. And for a while I didn’t really care cause it didn’t effect me all too much but it’s started effecting others and specifically the woman I love I’ve been trying to push her into orthodoxy knowing she has extreme religious trauma and let me say she is a Christian by definition she doesn’t identify with that name cause of her trauma but she does believe in Jesus and God she always has it’s just she has really bad traumas. But still I kept pushing her thinking what I was doing was righteous I see now I’m not righteous I’m just like the Pharisees on there high horse thinking they know best and ignoring anyone else. I need to be patient with her it’s not like she has no faith and it’s not like she’s completely shut off from the idea of orthodoxy as a matter of fact she starts therapy today to help her get over her traumas so maybe 2-3 years down the line she may enter the church one day. And it all culminated in her telling me I became the exact type of Christian she hates because I kept rushing her and she said she doesn’t even know if she loves me anymore it made me realize I’m not righteous I’m a prideful person who let his pride overcome him and I’ve possibly lost the love of my life she said she’s gonna give me 1 week to prove to her that the way I’ve been treating her the last months aren’t who I really am it’s my pride and my depression getting the best of me so I need not just some good books of the Bible to read to help with my depression, lack of faith, and ego but also some sincere help from much more righteous and faithful men along with prayers of my healing.