Need help (mental)
I got 80 percent all 6 subs combined in my boards and 57 percentile in jee the thing is that they don't think ill getaa seat in any NIT plus and they lost all trust in me first of all because i acted egoistic for going to apply for any private college plus even for putting forth a application or entrance exam i put up for the jee entry option or literally just left it theyre sayin that everybody especially kids who get good and better marks than me still put up applications for more than 10+ colleges and for some apparent reason they have a problem for me being happy like they dont want to see me happy or have fun. I don't understand what they want out of me my brain is collapsing under the pressure all the screaming threats atp jus jump me and let me go die. Ik this is not the end of my life i feel like running away but ig i have enuf maturity to understand that this build of pressure today will be calmer before tomorrow or sooner or later i just need advice on how to cope with this they're not going to let me have peace at all and hopefully pray for me that I don't end up at deeper scraping places. Im somehow not crying but i jus need it in me to get some sort of affection ig idk if its justifyable atp m yappin pls go comment and send help🙏🙏....