u/Rare_Temperature_543

I am trying to learn testing. But this AI support is really making me feel like I am not learning anything. I don't feel right. And actually I am not learning. Because I am not able to write code from start to end. I am not sure if it should be like this. Before this, like 3 4 years ago, I was able to write my own codes with confidence. Now, I can not.

Considering the industry needs, how should I be? What you can suggest? Am I right to be concerned on this?

I have recently completed my courses, I only have an internship obligation which I will do with Erasmus. I am a computer engineer.

I want to find a job as a computer engineer. The problem is it is like impossible for computer engineers in my country to find a job. Like, people are waiting for months and years to land a job. I couldn't find an internship for free. So, things are a bit problematic. I feel bad because of this. I want to do my job and gain money by doing it but I am not sure if I can do it.

I am self sufficient, I don't hang out, I don't have any friends in my city where my family lives. I only have one friend from highschool so I don't need any money to live. I don't like to buy new things, I don't like to eat outside etc. So I can live like this forever but I don't want to. I want to make money.

Another problem is military service obligation. We can pay the price and not do it, but it is too much money. Like it is 20xminimum wage in my country. Military service obligation takes 6 months. We can get paid by doing it 1 year as a reserve officer. I have like 3 years to go.

There is another opportunity. I have a relative. He is rich, has air conditioning job. He has two branches and he loves to work with relatives. He is good with my father, he loves him. He is telling my father that I can work with him. Also my father has a rich friend, he is opening a new branch for children's product store. He is calling me, my father says. The problem with working these places is that I don't want to live in this city. I like to go to concerts, stand ups, stadiums to watch sport activities, pubs to drink... Also being with my family is problematic because I am an atheist and it is like impossible for me to tell them this. So I have to behave like I am not. And being with my family is not what I want really. I need freedom. Our relations with me relatives are so tight, it creates too much responsibility. And to be honest, working with relatives and friends of my father is not a good thing. It can demolish the relationship between my father and them, also it is not easy to do what you want to do under those people. It is not easy to quit, ask for money etc. They behave like they are superior to me because they are giving me a job, not like a boss but an angel. So they don't allow me to talk about money. I have faced with it, he was a friend of my father's friend and they told me I shouldn't talk about money and just be okay with what they offer. But, I was underpaid as hell. Like, he was not giving me any road money and I was paying a lot for it. He did not take my insurance. So....

The job this relative can propose has this opportunity. As I said before, it has another branch. He has no child that wants to do his job. And I mean he really loves relatives. So, my mom says at some point I can be the manager of that branch or the original one. I can go up. Does this satisfy my expectations from life? It is not because that branch is not in a city that I want to live too. It is better than mine but not the one I want. For my father's friend, it applies the same. He has lots of branchs but no one to manage them really. He has a child, they are working together but he has lots of branchs and stores so at some point he will need another person. Also he is getting old, at some point he should back off and his child will take over.

I am currently applying to jobs but I don't have any hope. At some point, I think I should start working on a job. But I don't know when. My age is 24 and it is not good that I don't have any spare life. This is bugging me. But I know that I won't have that kind of life if I start working in this city with my family too.

What you can say about my situation? What would you do?