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And I will hold

These secrets

Not like treasure

Not promises to keep

But books in a library

Unknown till fates hand should brush the spine of tomes

dusty with sunlight and silence

Tomes dusty with silence

And sunlight yellowed edges

Or if no hand should reach

I should be content to know

The story for myself

It is enough

To have seen the apple and the cherry tree in bloom

In the garden of the mind

Before it passes to join those

Remembered only

I was where I've always been

Waiting for a hurricane

For relief that never came

I'm not ready to start again

There was a time I called you "home"

But where you've gone I can't follow

Was told I should evacuate

But I chose to walk into the waves

Feels like I'm climbing out a window

After slamming all the doors

When the right thing to do

Ain't the right thing to do anymore

You were a problem

I couldn't solve

But I was just happy

To be part of the equation

I've done things of which

I am not proud

Won't say them aloud

Not when anyone's around

I've got wounds

But Don't remember how

Can't remember now

A time I was without

And I'm aware

Of a bad taste inside my mouth

Like my insides want to come out

Like I trusted someone I should doubt

And now I'm rusted shut

No sunlight allowed.