u/QuietFunny8191

Hi, recently I’ve been stressing out a whole lot, as I finally kind of brought up to my parents about how drained Im feeling from playing. Im a 13F goalkeeper (yes very young :() and I have played soccer since I was 2, I currently play NPL 1, and I have reached state teams and national teams. I always kind of thought about whether I’d be happier not playing but I guess I’ve just pushed through despite constantly questioning. The problem is the pressure. And my situation amplifies it I suppose. After playing for my state, I unfortunately got a knee injury that had me out for about 4 months, and I returned in April.

Except, this was the year I had moved to a higher level team, so I missed out on like all these trials matches and a quarter of the season, and I didn’t do well socially to begin with so I struggled to become friends with these girls, worse now because I wasn’t even playing. I never had much soccer friends anyway, so usually I can deal with being alone and just doing my thing but now I’ve gotten back I’ve been playing horrible. Like I don’t even feel like myself. obviously I am aware it’s normal to feel like this when you’ve jsut returned but it’s been about 4 weeks now, and sometimes after training and games I’ll just ball my eyes out. Not to mention getting ignored by other girls makes it worse. Now the thing is, I also struggle quite a bit with mental health unfortunately, I have diagnosed depression, adhd and anxiety (they’re a bit overlapping though) and a strong chance of autism which I’m getting checked for soon. And the way I feel is really just disappointing.

it’s like a constant feeling of dread, and it feels hard to breath, like I’m breathing through a sheet, and early this year I had a huge burnout and started not finding enjoyment in many things, and had worse struggles with suicidal and self harm stuff. So when I got back and I’m playing crap, being ignored and feeling just completely drained, my mental health has gone down hill. and I wonder to myself if life would be a bit easier without all the stress and unhappiness caused by soccer. except, I’m scared that if I take a break, that my mental health could get worse, as I find soccer gives me somewhat a reason to be liked and stuff. Except thanks to that, I only feel somewhat satisfied in soccer if I’ve had a perfect game, any mistakes and I can’t move on from it. And I’m constantly so drained out from worrying and thinking about soccer, to the point that even if ive had a good game I’m already feeling overwhelmed by the next thing, and sometimes I worry so much people say it’s like I’m not even in the room. which is slightly worrying. and it makes me think if all the pressure, worrying, anxiety, and negative emotions is worth the chance of being satisfied,

Hi, recently I’ve been stressing out a whole lot, as I finally kind of brought up to my parents about how drained Im feeling from playing. Im a 13F goalkeeper (yes very young :() and I have played soccer since I was 2, I currently play NPL 1, and I have reached state teams and national teams. I always kind of thought about whether I’d be happier not playing but I guess I’ve just pushed through despite constantly questioning. The problem is the pressure. And my situation amplifies it I suppose. After playing for my state, I unfortunately got a knee injury that had me out for about 4 months, and I returned in April. Except, this was the year I had moved to a higher level team, so I missed out on like all these trials matches and a quarter of the season, and I didn’t do well socially to begin with so I struggled to become friends with these girls, worse now because I wasn’t even playing. I never had much soccer friends anyway, so usually I can deal with being alone and just doing my thing but now I’ve gotten back I’ve been playing horrible. Like I don’t even feel like myself. obviously I am aware it’s normal to feel like this when you’ve jsut returned but it’s been about 4 weeks now, and sometimes after training and games I’ll just ball my eyes out. Not to mention getting ignored by other girls makes it worse. Now the thing is, I also struggle quite a bit with mental health unfortunately, I have diagnosed depression, adhd and anxiety (they’re a bit overlapping though) and a strong chance of autism which I’m getting checked for soon. And the way I feel is really just disappointing. it’s like a constant feeling of dread, and it feels hard to breath, like I’m breathing through a sheet, and early this year I had a huge burnout and started not finding enjoyment in many things, and had worse struggles with suicidal and self harm stuff. So when I got back and I’m playing crap, being ignored and feeling just completely drained, my mental health has gone down hill. and I wonder to myself if life would be a bit easier without all the stress and unhappiness caused by soccer. except, I’m scared that if I take a break, that my mental health could get worse, as I find soccer gives me somewhat a reason to be liked and stuff. Except thanks to that, I only feel somewhat satisfied in soccer if I’ve had a perfect game, any mistakes and I can’t move on from it. And I’m constantly so drained out from worrying and thinking about soccer, to the point that even if ive had a good game I’m already feeling overwhelmed by the next thing, and sometimes I worry so much people say it’s like I’m not even in the room. which is slightly worrying. and it makes me think if all the pressure, worrying, anxiety, and negative emotions is worth the chance of being satisfied,

Hi, recently I’ve been stressing out a whole lot, as I finally kind of brought up to my parents about how drained Im feeling from playing. Im a 13F goalkeeper (yes very young :() and I have played soccer since I was 2, I currently play NPL 1, and I have reached state teams and national teams. I always kind of thought about whether I’d be happier not playing but I guess I’ve just pushed through despite constantly questioning. The problem is the pressure. And my situation amplifies it I suppose. After playing for my state, I unfortunately got a knee injury that had me out for about 4 months, and I returned in April. Except, this was the year I had moved to a higher level team, so I missed out on like all these trials matches and a quarter of the season, and I didn’t do well socially to begin with so I struggled to become friends with these girls, worse now because I wasn’t even playing. I never had much soccer friends anyway, so usually I can deal with being alone and just doing my thing but now I’ve gotten back I’ve been playing horrible. Like I don’t even feel like myself. obviously I am aware it’s normal to feel like this when you’ve jsut returned but it’s been about 4 weeks now, and sometimes after training and games I’ll just ball my eyes out. Not to mention getting ignored by other girls makes it worse. Now the thing is, I also struggle quite a bit with mental health unfortunately, I have diagnosed depression, adhd and anxiety (they’re a bit overlapping though) and a strong chance of autism which I’m getting checked for soon. And the way I feel is really just disappointing. it’s like a constant feeling of dread, and it feels hard to breath, like I’m breathing through a sheet, and early this year I had a huge burnout and started not finding enjoyment in many things, and had worse struggles with suicidal and self harm stuff. So when I got back and I’m playing crap, being ignored and feeling just completely drained, my mental health has gone down hill. and I wonder to myself if life would be a bit easier without all the stress and unhappiness caused by soccer. except, I’m scared that if I take a break, that my mental health could get worse, as I find soccer gives me somewhat a reason to be liked and stuff. Except thanks to that, I only feel somewhat satisfied in soccer if I’ve had a perfect game, any mistakes and I can’t move on from it. And I’m constantly so drained out from worrying and thinking about soccer, to the point that even if ive had a good game I’m already feeling overwhelmed by the next thing, and sometimes I worry so much people say it’s like I’m not even in the room. which is slightly worrying. and it makes me think if all the pressure, worrying, anxiety, and negative emotions is worth the chance of being satisfied,