Emetophobia, germaphobia, and the Eucharist
Does anyone else here struggle with Emetophobia?
I am newly baptized, and so happy to be home ☦️. But I must admit I struggle very much with the idea of the shared spoon.
Now, before I continue, let me clarify a couple things because I know people will ask or suggest this: yes, I have talked to my priest, and yes, I understand the body and blood of Christ will not make you sick. I understand this on a spiritual level. But my flesh is still afraid.
My phobias hold me back very much from living my life. But, it’s as I told my priest, I wouldn’t be taking the Eucharist if I didn’t believe in it. I believe. I take it with shaking hands and a racing heart, while trying to silence my fears.
I guess my question is, does anyone else have this struggle? Has anyone gotten sick and known it came from the shared spoon? Any practical advice? My priest has allowed me to not close my mouth around the spoon, so this helps, and I’m grateful for his compassion.
Thank you. Please be kind.