Hitting yourself when stressed/angry/overwhelmed
33m. Like most other things about me, this is HUMILIATING to admit. Ive done it since I was a toddler. Whenever I get really overwhelmed, I will punch myself in the head or somewhere else large like my thigh. I have never thought to do it, it just happens. A very impulsive act.
As an adult, there's only been a few times this has happened. However, something has really been stressing me out over the last couple of days, and now I have done it twice. The second time was so hard that I have a few knots on my head and a few knuckles are swollen.
Had to have been several years since the last time I've done this. I dont even recall what happened last time that triggered it. I dont have a desire to hurt myself and always immediately regret it and feel humiliated after I realize what I did.
Is this something I should talk to someone about? Am I just immature? Luckily, I've never done this in front of anyone, but I expect someone to ask about the swelling next time I see them. What the hell is wrong with me?